Some days you just need a Starbucks! Don’t you agree?
It’s a snowy Tuesday in NYC and all I wanted to do today is call in sick. I’m perfectly healthy just dreading going out in the snow. It can go from a few inches to snowmageddon in a matter of minutes. I feel off today and I am not sure why. Just another random nostalgic day I guess. Either way out the door I go.
Lucky for me there was a thoughtful message in my email. (You can subscribe to these Daily Truthbomb emails here.)
Interestingly enough these are exactly the words I needed to hear today. Sometimes I feel like I plan my days away. It’s frustrating and at the same time I can’t help myself. But these words really stuck me today. Right now is the perfect time to appreciate my current reality. There could not be a better season. So I will resist the urge to plan my 2014 goals (yes that’s what I was thinking of today) and just enjoy this year which is not over yet.
Who knows what can happen in the remaining 21 days of the year and surely do not want to miss it!
It’s the last month of the year.
This use to be my favorite month of the year. The celebrating, the decorating, the shopping, and everything to do with Christmas.The Black Friday shopping, putting up the tree on Thanksgiving weekend and all the other holly jolly traditions. My family tolerated my antics and it was only my sister who mostly enjoyed it with me. This was the way our mom had raised us. She created Christmas in our home every year. When we were old enough she gladly passed on the decorating duties to us. My dad was not a Christmas fan, his childhood was very different from the glorious one he gave my sister and I. But he put that aside for us, even playing Santa one year at a family party. Until my sister outed him by pulling his fake beard and saying, “That’s not Santa! That’s Daddy!”
Two years ago today the events of December 2011 broke my heart. It was the first time December became bittersweet for me. It still hurts today when I remember the last Christmas with my dad. Having him home was the greatest gift we have ever received but it is still so painful. I know its very common to miss your loved ones during the holidays. I know I am not the only one. There are days forever burned into my memory and the 9th of December is definitely one of them. I can’t help it, this day forever changed our family.
The break from the blog and social media in general was on purpose. Now I feel I need time to be present in the current holiday. Thanksgiving this year was better than last year. It will be that way with Christmas I assume. We can hear and say the word ‘Christmas’ without flinching and feeling like your heart is being ripped out. We can watch Christmas shows on TV. I’m not a fan of Christmas music but that’s not because of my dad, that’s from years of working at a toy story during the holidays. So some Christmas music is okay. My mom put out her Nativity Set which is something my dad loved to do. Our baby Jesus came from Ecuador and it was very special to my dad.
We decorated a bit this year because it felt right. None of us want a Christmas tree up and we do not want to leave home on Christmas eve/day. We are not up for celebrating with extended family just yet. We are okay with it being just the three of us. We will go to the cemetery, church, then home to make a special meal, remember, exchange gifts and celebrate our way. It will be a different kind of Christmas. We owe that to ourselves and especially our mom. It’s for her that I want to let in more of the Christmas cheer this year. She deserves to have her children celebrate with her. She is alive and deserves all our love and joy. We won’t add more pain to her days by being sad. No matter what sad feelings the holidays may bring we are still very lucky to have her. We want her to know that and I’m sure that will make my dad happy.
NaBloPoMo Day 29
BlogHer prompt: You’re almost done! Tell us how you feel about endings.
Endings is a tricky word. Some endings are fantastic. Finishing a test or a class you don’t like is a good ending. Finish painting your house or doing laundry that’s a great ending. While a break-up or divorce you did not expect is an ending that is devastating. Yet one you plan for is sometimes a good thing. See what I mean- tricky word!
The most tragic of endings is death of a loved one. It’s the hardest to come to terms with but if you go through the process you can find a way to let life in. It is never the same. You are never the same but that is okay. This type of ending is something we all must face at some point in our lives. It’s something that tests our strength, love and faith. But if we can learn something about ourselves in the process, we grow stronger.
In a way, I can appreciate endings because after them you get to start again. Beginnings are so much better. Don’t get me wrong they are also sometimes very hard to deal with but they are always full of hope. I love beginnings. It is never wrong to start again, make a better choice and move forward. Their is comfort in new beginnings because they can alway bring about a different end. I try to accept both endings and beginnings in my life. Each teach me something valuable. Each let me grow. Sometimes the are something I want to do and sometimes they are not.
That is life. One of my favorite song lyrics pretty much says it all.
NaBloPoMo Day 28
I am thankful for waking up today surrounded by those I love.
For being at a place in my life where I am truly happy with my choices.
For amazing friends who bring so much to my life and stand by me through it all.
For my work.
For my health.
For the ability to express myself on this blog.
And I am thankful for my dad’s blessing from above.
Happy Thanksgiving from my family to yours!
NaBloPoMo Day 26
I can’t believe NaBloPoMo is almost over! So far so good. Even though this past weekend’s posts were a quote and a photo, I got through it. Weekends are getting busy! Hopefully I can make it through the Thanksgiving weekend without forgetting to blog. I will plan ahead and try writing one post between now and Saturday.
When I started this blog I was very happy with the blog name but the tag line was ‘eh’ and I knew it. Every couple of months I’d revisit it and try to come up with some thing different. Today I decided to go back to my original blog header image and finally revised the tag line. I read a few articles about coming up with tag lines and it triggered these words.
I am much happier with this tag line. It reflects my love of taking pictures. 99% of the pictures I use in posts are taken by me. I always take random pictures because I know they will come in handy later on. Rarely do I stage a photo. A blog post idea comes from something I’ve photographed in the past. Also the words “healthy choice” can apply to just about every decision one can make in life. I like that it is broad enough to encompass all blog topics. This tag line suits my blog so much better.
Of course I’d love to do a full blog redesign but I don’t have the time or extra money to spend on that project. Maybe next year. I am getting more comfortable with adding text to images and then using them as a blog headers. I loved my summer header image. I’m sure I will be using that picture again. Both headers were easily created with the Paint program on a Windows PC. Give it a try, it is super easy.
Is there anything you would like to change on your blog? Share in the comments.
NaBloPoMo Day 25
The week of Thanksgiving has me going back on the year and thinking of all the good things in life. Life is not perfect and maybe some things are complicated and always will be but it never hurts to remember all the good. So as I look back, each month of the year is filled with something wonderful.
January: Thankful that my mother was not hurt and her home was not completely destroyed due to the fire next door.
February: Thankful to have gotten through my dad’s first anniversary. It was a beautiful day with our extended family.
March: Thankful that my mom and sister were able to go back to their home.
April: Thankful for the month that celebrates my little sister.
May: Thankful for my favorite month.
June: Thankful my sister graduated from her internship.
July: Thankful for the healing power of the beach and warm sun.
August: Thankful my friends baby came into this world.
September: Thankful for the clarity of what I want.
October: Thankful for wonderful friends.
November: Thankful to have my family with me for another Thanksgiving.
NaBloPoMo Day 24
Short post today because I have a very busy Sunday.
I thought I had more time.
Knitting is usually an activity I pick up around Thanksgiving weekend. I make three to five scarves during the holiday season. It usually keeps my family warm through these cold winter months. I barely started this scarf and now I have to hurry up and get the rest done.
Knitting is my most favorite cold weather hobby. It is relaxing and satisfying to make something from scratch. Besides my loved ones get to wear my creations. I need to be more consistent and take a few more classes to move on from just scarves. Hopefully next year I will add hats into the mix.
Do you have a favorite hobby for the cold weather months?