This post falls into the Back to Basics challenge I am participating in for the month of September however with recent events of this week, it means so much more. I don’t know how to write this so it doesn’t come from a negative place because that is not how I mean it. Please keep that in mind.
For the last year nothing in my life has been “easy”. I’m not going to rehash all the events. Some are major and some are just day-to-day ones. I know life is not easy but for a good 30+ years it was…for me. (At least that is how I felt.) Challenges arose and I was able to work through them without that “knock me down to my core” feeling. That all changed last year and now it takes me longer to figure things out, regroup and start again. After spending most of August in a haze I’ve come to realize it is because my priorities have changed. I’ve changed. I can never be the person I was before. Life is harder now and it’s okay. I need to stop expecting things to go back to being easy. By “easy” I mean relying on, being guided by and having the support of a father who was always there for me. He is gone but I do have a wonderful family and group of friends who are there for me. I also have to have more faith in my own decisions and truly stand on my own now.
This became clear to me over the weekend as we struggled to care for our sick dog. He had not been doing well all of last week and yesterday almost became the day we had to put him down. If you are a pet owner you know how hard this is. You know the struggle of deciding if now is the time versus just one more day. Max is my baby. The decision of when is ultimately mine. It weighs heavily on my heart. My mom and sister are there to provide support but it is a decision now one wants to make. Luckily Max, ate some food yesterday after almost four days of not eating. His symptoms seem to be getting better with the antibiotics so we are cautiously optimistic. Not quite out of the woods yet and with him being almost 17 years old this decision looms over me every day he does not improve. The last thing I want if for him to suffer. Part of being a responsible pet owner is knowing when to let go.
That is how my September started.
All that was going this weekend so my plan to start this month with organized meal plans, workouts and a clean house all went out the window. I did however manage to do one thing…go food shopping. For this week’s sake, since I know my time will be spent between my house and my mom’s to care for Max, I relied on some old favorites: Weight Watcher meals for lunch, Chobani yogurt for snacks, spinach and fruit for smoothies and eggs or cereal for breakfast. I figured dinners will mostly be at mom’s so that will be protein and a salad.
Workouts are going to be a challenge this week. I had this whole calendar full of workouts scheduled but that would require me being at home with all my equipment and DVDs. Not sure how I will fit that in but I have to figure out something with the time and space I do have. I’m sure I can get 30 minutes of exercise in each day. Figuring out how is my goal for today.
So for this week the way I will apply improving spaces is by:
- Keeping calm and level-headed when dealing with the care of our family pet. Emotional issues cannot be overlooked because they affect all other areas of life. Deal with this first!
- Staying with the meal plan I have prepared for. The house is clean of junk food and trigger foods so keep it that way!
- Getting in workouts with the limited time and space. Aiming to get in at least 3 workouts in before now and Sunday.
How are you going to improve the spaces in your life?
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