Dream Speaking to Me

Last night I had a dream where I was at a concert and I lost my purse and cell phone. Somehow the cell phone was returned to me but my purse and all my personal ids were gone. Being that is a confusing time in my life, I went to my favorite dream interpretation site, Dream Moods, to try to piece together the message.

Concert: To dream that you are at a concert represents harmony and cooperation in a situation or relationship in your waking life. You are experiencing an uplift in your spirits.

Purse: To dream that you lost your purse denotes loss of power and control. You may have lost touch with your real identity.

Cell Phone: To dream that you lost your cell phone represents a lack of communication. You have lost touch with some aspect of your feelings or your Self. If you find a cell phone, then it symbolizes reconnection and reopened communication.

Oh boy, what a series of messages.

Actually reading all the different aspects of the dream together does makes sense to me. I trust messages in my dreams because when I sleep it is the one time of day where my brain shuts off and relaxes. I am constantly thinking about things…a lot of things. So much so that yesterday my sister had me practice a mindfulness exercise. She had me focus on my breath for a block as we walked toward mom’s house. It was an eye-opening exercise and the calmness I felt is one I had not felt in many months. I lost that ability to “be” in the moment when I lost my dad. Back then I was able to focus on the task at hand and live each moment. But after we lost him, I feel like I have to think of everything. Be ahead of what’s going to happen. Plan, plan and plan so that we can be okay. No one can live this way for very long and I’ve been doing this for almost a year. I didn’t realize until yesterday this is why my brain won’t shut off. Why I haven’t been able to concentrate on completing a signal personal project since that day. I realize I need to retrain my mind for my own sake.

The message in my dream is somewhat comforting. If the concert represents uplifting in my spirits, that is what I definitely seek. I know only I can find a way to give that to myself. The losing of the purse speaks volumes! I said it the moment I lost my father…I lost who I was. Overcoming this feeling has been one of my biggest challenges. There are days when I still feel this way and there are days when I can see who I am now. It’s very confusing but also very fascinating to see myself change and discover new things about myself. I’m glad I found my cell phone in the dream since it represents reconnection and reopened communication. Two things I have always been open to, sometimes even to my detriment, but nonetheless part of who I am.

I’m working hard to put the current circumstances into perspective. We all have challenging times in our lives. This is mine. I’m trying to get through this week, the first anniversary and everything else going on with a positive mind frame. Some days I succeed and some days I don’t.

Today I am practicing mindfulness again.

I won’t dwell on what’s past and I won’t try to anticipate the future.

Peace is in this moment.